#ThrowbackThursday: A Baby Jay & A Special Letter!

Hi My Loves!!

This week's #ThrowbackThursday has some great pictures I found in our treasure box of memories. I found some real goodies for you, so get ready for extreme cuteness, coolness and some really big hair. 

First picture is of Jay when he was a baby. He looks about 16-18 months I'm guessing. He's got his little snowsuit on.. how cute is he?? Who do you think he looks like? Phoenix or Lily? I can't decide. I think I see more of Lily. He was such a gorgeous baby. I love his little outfit. 

What a cutie patootie :)

Next is a letter from my Mom. It's kind of ironic now that I read it as a 28 year old woman who has lost her mother. Who knew that when I was 6, this note would mean so much to me 22 years later. It's weird in a way, the things that she wrote because now I don't have her but she is always in my heart. 

My Dad and Mom went to America when we were little to go and find a new place to live, since we were moving over there. My brother, sister and I stayed with my Nanny and Grandad in England. I don't actually know how long they were gone for but I remember at the time it seemed like months. I honestly have no clue how long it was. I cried a lot. I missed her so much. I had a dress that my Aunt gave to me. She told me I couldn't cry in it when I went to school because my tears would make holes in my dress and eventually I wouldn't have a dress to wear. I remember trying not to get my tears on my dress ;) It's funny the things that stick out in your mind so much. It's crazy to think that fast forward 8 years from this note, I would be crying again from missing her. Life is strange. 

On a happier note isn't the picture super cute? I'm a Leo and so was my Mom. Lions have always been something that she would get me, whether it was a necklace or stuffed animal. I love Lions to this day :) Magestic creatures. Sheba was our Newfoundland. She passed away and my Mom was so upset. Sheba was a great doggy and she had her when I was a baby.

Here's something a little funner. My diary from 2000. I was 14. It must have been an Easter Break because I was having a lot of sleepovers. My Mom was in the hospital a lot, so I tried to keep my mind occupied with friends. Hugh was my boyfriend. He was very sweet and made those hard years much happier for me. I love this little bear character. It was my favorite when I was younger. I always bought these little diary's with the bear on it. So cute. I don't see them over here though.

Last but not least is a picture of my Nanny (Grandma), Mom (in the middle), Aunt (left) and Uncle (the baby). How cool is this picture? It must have been early 60's? I love their hair! So fun and crazy to think that little girls wore it like this at such a young age. My Mom looks just like me at that age but with dark eyes and dark hair. My Nanny is so glamorous here :) She's a beauty.

It makes me laugh because my Mom always used to tell me how my Nanny would dress her and my Aunt in the same outfits all the time. I can't remember if she got annoyed by it or not but I think it's so cute. 

That's my Throwback Thursday for you :) Hope you like it! Sorry if these have been a little more deep and dark but I like sharing these pictures with you. It's made me the person I am today. We all have moments in our lives that were dark periods but it's all how you decide to live your life in the end. I am so fortunate to have such an amazing, happy life now. I never thought at the time of darkness, I could ever be happy again. But here I am, happiest I've ever been with my soulmate and two healthy beautiful babies :) Don't give up if you are in your dark spell. We all have them, it's what you turn them into that counts :)

Love you all!

#ThrowbackThursday: A Little Me & My First Lipstick!

Hi My Loves!!

It's that time again for my favorite blog post..... #ThrowbackThursday :) I just LOVE doing these. It gives me the opportunity to look at my old photo albums and share little bits of my past with you. We are going all the way back to my childhood today. I haven't looked at these pictures in so long, so it was nice to go through them all.

Here's me when I was maybe 3 or 4? I look like I'm around Phoenix's age. This was in England. I like the fact that I have food on my shirt, makes me feel like I'm not the only one who has children with food on their shirts haha! Don't I look like Phoenix here?

I love this picture of me. I look so sweet and happy. I love that dressing gown my Mom is wearing. She used to wear it all the time. I wish I still had it. My hair is so golden in this picture. So pretty :)

I used to love clip on earrings. This was in England as well. I think it was at my Nanny's house (Grandma). How cute are my brother and sister? I love her bangs, she's like a little doll. Her eyes were so big when she was little ;)

This was the first time I wore lipstick. We were at my Nanny's house and my cousin and I thought we were really grown up with our lipstick on. I wasn't sure how to smile with it on haha! Look how cute BS is puckering up her lips :) I love this picture of all of us with out cousins. I miss them so much, they live in England.

Here's my Great Grandma. Her name was Little Nanny because she was so tiny. She was quite old here and didn't have the best memory in the world. She was very sweet. I like her wallpaper :) My Mom used to wear those huge glasses, she couldn't see without them. That was my favorite coat. I loved it, I used to wear it all the time. How beautiful is my Mom's skin? I don't know what happened to me to get such crap skin. I wish I had hers but I think I got my Dad's side of the family's instead :(

Here's my little ID card for school when we lived in Tahoe. I was in 5th grade here. I think it's cool to know how much I weighed back then haha! 77 pounds! I used to wear that vest a lot. I liked wearing headbands too :)

This was in 7th grade. That's my natural hair color although I'm sure it's more ashy now. My mom curled my hair for me and I remember not wanting to wash it because then it wouldn't look as pretty. 

Last but not least.... my Mommy :) Isn't she beautiful? Her skin was olive and so perfect. My sister takes after her in that department. Her hair was so thick and healthy just like my sister too. Today was tough looking at pictures of her. Some days are easier than others when you've lost a parent or any loved one. Sometimes I can look at her and smile and then sometimes (like today) it makes me want to cry. I get sad that she's gone and wish I could just hug her. It's tough but I know I'm not alone with these feelings. I'm just feeling kinda down today so I wish I could just call her. She always knew how to make me feel better. She was my best friend and I miss her very much. She got dolled up when she threw parties for our friends. I used to sit in the bathroom with her and watch her do her hair and makeup and pick out her jewelry. Appreciate and take advantage of the time you have with your Mom's. You will miss them when they are gone. I do everyday.

 Hope you enjoyed my #ThrowbackThursday this week. I'll see you in my video tomorrow! Hope you liked my latest video with my brother too!

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